Life has been insane lately. No, wait, insane is an understatement. Let’s try out-of-body, stressful, stupid busy, upside-down and chaotic. From the moment we found out twins were on the way, on December 23, 2013, life has been a dramatic roller coaster.
Wow, over a year of a bedridden pregnancy, a twin delivery and recovery, parenting four kids, getting used to a new family dynamic, marriage relationship adjustments and attention-giving, postpartum depression and recovery, going viral, trying to create a business, deciding if we renovate or move and all of the little moments in-between, I am EXHAUSTED!
I know that this is how life can be and I have had so many incredible and extraordinary things happen in my life, which I am very grateful for and humbled by. But I am starting to feel like the last bit of creativity, optimism and sparkle have been scooped out of me. You know, those parts of you that are the extra bits that make you, you?
I am starting to wander around in my little world, going through the motions, barely answering emails or texts or comments. Not cooking, not getting out of my sweats and feeling almost robotic.
No, I don’t think I am depressed, which I am far too familiar with. Fortunately, when I have suffered from depression in the past, I have gotten help and I now have the tools to help me not go too far down that rabbit hole. I would say I am the definition of BURNT OUT.
Tomorrow I am flying to Phoenix, for three days, all by myself, to attend Mom 2.0 Summit, which is a premier mom blogging conference.
The timing couldn’t be better.
As you probably know by now, I am a very visual person. So I am picturing this large hand reaching down and plucking me out of my life and placing me in a highly creative, inspiring and independent situation where I can reflect, recharge and gain perspective.
Of course I am going to miss my kids and Mike, but I think this is exactly what I need right now.
I am going to blog about my experience there as well as what it is like leaving my family behind for a few days. I will share with you the amazing stories I hear from the incredible moms who I meet and have the privilege of hearing speak about their own journey.
I will be Instagramming and Tweeting the entire time as well, including the fashion… yes, there are a few events that have warranted some recent shopping. I am looking forward to listening to some of my blogging heroes and creating some very special new relationships.
Let’s do this! Time to press reset.